Wednesday, December 27, 2006

More not-running thoughts

Ha! This story, while it has to do w/ 'exterior mess' more than it does the interior variety, still brings to mind my current predicament. Because were you to unhinge my head, inside you'd find a whole lotta mess, largely owing to the absence of running in my life. I'm staring, rather angrily, at ten days out at this point, and until I meet w/ Mr. Fix-It at one o'clock tomorrow, there's no telling how many 24-hour periods'll be added to the count.

Really, though, it feels ugly up there. I'm certainly not like the people referenced in the story who are at their best/most creative when their lives are all aclutter. Because while I rely heavily on the 'clutter' of creative thoughts and ideas--writing and non-writing related--swimming about my brain on any given day, I require daily clean-ups (runs) to give them any sort of form. So actually, then, I suppose I find a combination of 'mess' and 'less' ideal. I need the mess, for w/o it life'd be pretty damn dull, but all the same, I need regular opportunity to organize it into something manageable. Running offers me that, and w/o it I'm not myself.

Also: It occurred to me how strange it is/feels to have just stopped the way I did. Bam, done. No taper, none of that familiar tension that starts building in the days leading up to the big day and culminates, hopefully, in the attainment of one's race goal. Just done--in the course of a single run. It's not the way it's supposed to go, you know?

Posted by princess kanomanom @ 1:31 PM